China, IL is on TV...

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So (technically yesterday) was Super Bowl Sunday. I don't care much for football...all I'm sure of is that I love the Colts and Peyton Manning and I hate the Patriots and Steelers. I was just excited about the food. We had meatballs, cake I made, and queso. We planned on chili, pizza, and brownies, too but we were all satisfied with what we ended up just having.

I managed to not get an anxiety attack at Walmart which was really crowded. I am proud of myself! But tonight I was sound asleep and apparently sleep-talking to my dad. When I stopped responding he talked louder and I woke up but didn't open my eyes. I was in a weird state where even though I knew he was trying to get me awake and I WAS awake, I wouldn't open my eyes or respond. Then I heard  my mom yell at him to leave me alone. He didn't listen. It was too late anyway, I was going to get up. I had to pee too bad to go back to sleep. Not real happy with my dad right now!

I finished reading "The Help" tonight...huge book and I read it in 4 days. It was an awesome read. Me and my mom can't wait to see the movie!

Crap, I'm out of diet coke. Gotta go get more downstairs. Shoot.

Back! Yesterday we also had to buy flea treatment for poor Kaya. She's losing more and more hair. I'm hoping that's all it is so we don't have to traumatize her with a visit to the vet. She'll lose her mind in that cat carrier, poor thing. Thankfully she's sleeping now and not licking or scratching obsessively. What's weird is that Sydney doesn't have them. But I will be treating them both nevertheless.

I'm looking forward to today. Workout (cardio AND muscles are finally not jelly anymore) and the library to pick up my copy of Berserk (a manga aka Japanese comic) and Slaughterhouse Five. I'm currently reading Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk (he wrote Fight Club). I've found reading  helps me get through withdrawal. I'm so mad I forgot the NA meeting on Saturday night! I promised a friend I'd go and I just plain forgot. I was reading the night away then. Boo. Next week, then!

Oooh, I can smell the laundry detergent from the washer downstairs through my air vent. Smells so good!

Off to read some manga or "Snuff" for awhile. Later!

Monday, February 4, 2013


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I got the interview at Rite-Aid! Tuesday at noon!


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So today kinda sucked. I slept for an hour and a half in my desk chair when my mom woke me up to tell me to go to bed, but I knew I had to stay up and keep Sophie company while my parents were at my dad's doctor appointment. Our landlord was coming by to inspect the damage of a tree falling on our roof during a snowstorm last night. A branch was launched through the ceiling in our bathroom. Man was that a loud noise! My first thought was thunder, then I realized it was snowing, then I thought it was my bed, but I realized it was making noise too long for it to be my bed breaking again, then I thought something had fallen in the bathroom but didn't know what could possibly be that loud. So all at once my whole family was in the hallway and I looked in the bathroom to find insulation coming through the ceiling and a huge mess of debris and branch pieces (along with a big branch) scattered around. What a mess!

But I am expecting a call tomorrow from the Rite-Aid pharmacist about a possible interview...EEP! So nervous!

I had Wendy's for an early dinner and my parents are out bringing Evaroni's home. Yum times a million!

Today I also registered for classes at Liberty University Online for my degree in Substance Abuse Counseling Psychology. I also filled out my FAFSA all by myself! Yeah! I rock sometimes. I'm hoping I get a good Pell Grant to cover tuition, my textbook, and have some leftover to take care of some things, like Kaya's allergies and my need to see an eye doctor. And if there's any left over, I'm buying my Colossalcon ticket, booking a room, and buying Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood on DVD. I'm also going to buy some clothes from Goodwill. But that's all if things go the way I think they will, but that's never an accurate prediction.

But I was up so late last night I forgot to take my meds, so I took them during the day and not thinking, I took my Klonopin which makes me sleepy. I was supposed to drive to West Virginia to get Evaroni's Pizza so my mom could catch a break, but I was too tired to keep my eyes open. So my mom got really upset and that in turn upset me like no other.

Last night I got a quarter way through The Help. Hoping to get through a few chapters tonight. Not sure it'll be a late night given my lack of sleep today. Oh who am I kidding, I'll be up at 5 am still. We all know it.

So I guess today was kinda good and kinda crappy, too. It wasn't all bad. Really excited about my classes and potential job interview! Fingers crossed!

Introduction...or Not

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So...the awkward first post. So...yeah, about me. Never mind, forget about that, I'm too tired to describe myself right now. I'll have to do that later.

Well it's almost 7:15 am and I've been up all night. Yikes. I almost hate to go to sleep because I always wake up with such horrible anxiety...ugh!

Today on the out (cardio day) and library, then reading!

I am struggling to find a new anime to watch on Netflix. There's plenty on DVD I want to watch but not much in streaming that I haven't seen yet and actually like. BOO. Maybe I'll restart Canaan. I didn't pay enough attention to that one...I was too busy coloring. Don't judge.

I want egg salad but we're out of mustard. Boo to that, too. *yawn*

I'm going to try and write in this everyday. We'll see how well that goes haha.